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i’m lonely but i’m not
i have it all
but what have i got
slowly drifting
away
"I find it wholesome to be alone the greater part of the time. To be in company, even with the best, is soon wearisome and dissipating. I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude."
Henry David Thoreau
exhausted
i’m absolutely shot. mentally mostly. work has been getting the better of me recently. this long weekend couldn’t have come at a better time. much needed. i guess christianity is good for something.
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outlook
sometimes i think i’m too smart. not in an arrogant way. just in the way i see life. i find it difficult to relate to people who care too much about things. i mean there are certain things that are totally worth caring about, but in the larger scheme of things, what does it even matter? i think that’s my biggest problem in that i don’t really care about anything. i’m rarely enthusiastic about anything. maybe that’s why people find it difficult to relate to me. i’m not an actor, i can’t just fake it. nor would i want to if i could. what matters to me is family and friends. but this doesn’t really help me get anywhere with my life. but i guess that’s the whole point, i have no idea what i want to do with my life. i don’t know if my job/engineering is right for me. my dream is to raise an amazing family and live happily ever after. I don’t want to be rich, but I do want to be comfortable. I don’t really know what I’m talking about anymore but yeah.
"so mega blazed right now. have been doing a bit of those legal highs recently but tonight i smoked pot. and this is so much nicer. a way better buzz."
time
it’s been a long time since i’ve written here. what’s happened since? well, what i thought was going to happen didn’t and it turned into a horrible situation. it’s over now though, that bitch was crazy and it’s definitely for the better. work is going relatively well, enjoying when i get interesting jobs. need to curb my spending though. and lay off the drugs.
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"Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing."
Oscar Wilde
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